a day of complications
currently busy with: watching back episodes of smallville...it was a really bad day for me yesterday..what was supposedly a day to can't wait for turned out to be a day that i hope didnt come..
strike 1: a few hours before my last day of work for the week, i got a call from HR that i have a panel interview for the management developement program i applied for..this program was for the future team leaders...i was scheduled for the interview 7:30 am...30 mins after my shift...i wasnt prepared at all...didnt expect that after my TL gave my sched to the HR(that very same day),an interview was lurking in the near future. and at the same time i had to postpone a previous appointment with a friend..there goes my social life.
had to psyche myself...psyche myself really fast..at least my TL and i practiced some stuff to prepare me for the interview..
after the coaching session, i found out that i got 2 dissats from the calls i took in the day before..one of those dissats would really pull my scorecards down..that was strike 2
i prepped myself for the interview as my shift was nearing the end..went down to the meeting room and then the interview took place..this was just like our thesis defense...only worse...i was alone..
the interview was finished..they gave me feedback...and in a very poilte manner, they said im out (thats what i felt)
they gave feedback to my TL...first few points were impressive...i was confident, i had the aura and potential of being a leader (despite the sweaty cold hands)....but...yeah there is a but..i wasnt able to answer in depth and they saw that i rule with an iron fist. WTF OMG!..that was ok...but i never really really really thought i would have an inner personality like that...isnt that funny? a very innocent face and a very kind person like me would have a personality like that (as in yeah right)..yeah you guessed it right..strike 3
that was all right...lets say i was trying my luck...i was just working there for 6 months, just got regularized and still havent gotten my raise but here i am bravely applying for a posistion where many are called only a few were chosen (oh was that line from the DLSU pep squad?)..at least i heard a whisper..i may not hear the calling now..but really i heard a whisper
i still have next time...i just was so sad because i had the opportunity already..but there are things to learn, stories to tell and songs to sing...
they say at the end of the rain there will always be a rainbow...i found my rainbow.well just for that day..i met new friends..friends of my friends...and they werent really that hard to be with..and i thank god for that...and life goes on...till the next chapter
thanks to those who said a little prayer and kept my confidence up..
posted by pat @ 7:19 AM
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